The other side



I made a terrible mistake last summer. 

I repented of my sin, and over the course of a year I dealt with my sin in the only way I know how. I was honest. Many of you followed my journey and wept with me, and prayed with me, and found a picture of your own struggles in mine as I shared. I felt your love and acceptance as I walked through the valley. Thank you.

The lessons I learned this past year could fill pages and pages. I'm sure they will fill pages and pages as I allow the Spirit of God to lead me in this ministry of writing He has given me.

I want all of you to know, I made it safely to the other side. I crossed the storm-tossed sea and I'm on the other side now. Jesus did not leave me.

In one of my darkest moments God gave me these words;

Why do you call me 'Lord, Lord,' and not do what I tell you? I will show you what it's like when someone comes to to Me, listens to my teaching, and then follows it. It is like a person building a house who digs deep and lays the foundation on solid rock. When the floodwaters rise and break against that house, it stands firm because it is well built. But anyone who hears and doesn't obey is like person who builds a house without a foundation. When the floods sweep down against that house, it will collapse into a heap of ruin. Luke 6:46-49
When, not if.
More than once in the past few months, I have been like the disciples in the boat crying, Lord! Save me! Do you care that I am about to perish here? More than once I pleaded with the Anchor of my soul to keep me from drifting out into the storm tossed sea. His response to my desperation was always the same,
"Peace. Be still. We are crossing to the other side. Trust Me to take you there safely." Essentially, relax, I've got this. I AM in control here. No worries.
When I choose to let go of my anxious thoughts and believe the whispering of the Holy Spirit a deep unexplainable peace settles in my heart. I think of Charles Dickens who wrote, 'These are the worst of times and the best of times.' My life is in turmoil and the only sense I can make of it is that it is most definitely chaos. God is more than I thought. His love reaches to the heavens, His forgiveness is as far as the east is from the west. I am safe in his everlasting arms, no matter what we are facing, he has the power to say to our turbulent hearts, peace be still and we are stilled in the hush of his voice. In the quietness after the surrender, we breathe deep his grace and feel renewed. There is nothing like it. As I watch the sun coming up and turning the world a brilliant pink, I feel his grace strengthening me. I am safe in the arms of Jesus. Today is a new day. And thank you Lord that your mercies are new every morning and great is your faithfulness. I would perish in this flood if not for you. You are my strength, my shepherd God that keeps watch over me by night. It is the night of my soul and you are an ever present help to guide me through it, to the other side we go, together. I trust you.

I had many of these moments over the past year, learning my Savior's love like never before. And now his words to me have become my reality. He was and is faithful. We have crossed to the other side, together. He never left my side.


Love informs my life. Love first for God, and second for people. Last year I got these two commandments mixed up and the result was sin.

FIRST Love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul and mind and body.
SECOND Love your neighbor as yourself.

If we get these two out of order the result is chaos and most likely sin will follow in it's wake.

All of our thoughts and actions have to flow through these two commandments, in the intended order. If we follow these two simple commands we will live a life with no regrets.

Love does no wrong to others, so love fulfills the requirements of God's law. ~Romans 13:10

Love always,

Renee

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