Living on Grace
Do you ever think about what it is we're doing in this Christian thing? I mean just stop and question your actions, your motives, what and why you are doing whatever it is you call Christianity and just what is faith? Have you ever felt like your just going through the motions with no real substance. Does all of this Christian activity ever feel kind of empty and meaningless to you?
For those of you that have followed my writing this spring, you know that I have been asking a lot of questions about the church and Christianity and where is Jesus in all of this. In my quest for truth and answers, Somehow I lost my way, His Way. Searching so hard to find Him in the church, I got lost. I became very discouraged.
While looking for Jesus in the church, I stumbled and lost my footing. We must never take our eyes off of the Author and Finisher of our faith. When we look to the church to write our stories, Hell breaks loose on our lives. Let me tell you this, Only God is able to save us, and only Jesus is our Anchor. The church is fallible, broken and full of humanity. Broken hypocritical humanity. I am the first to admit my own hypocrisy. I pretend to be someone I'm not without even thinking about it. It comes natural, it is natural. The church is largely living naturally and carnally, and not living up to our calling. We are supposed to be living in the Spirit, but all too often we are living in our failing flesh. Lesson learned: Don't expect to find Jesus in the church. Really. Don't expect anything.
When I read about Jesus' life I want to change, but I feel like I'm stuck in a rut and the sides are so high that I can't climb out. I want to change and I don't know how to change. I write about Jesus and being like Him, but I'm not. I am finding it very hard to change patterns and thoughts. The 'the way we've always done it' attitude is so prevalent that I almost feel rebellious for wanting to change more into the image of Christ! Is that insane? Growing more Christ-like is going against the grain. I am beginning to see a new facet to dying to self.
Grace and Love,
A song and video to inspire you: