Those who say they live in God should live their lives as Jesus did. 1John 2:6
The more that I study the life of Jesus, the more astonished I am at my life.
What is Christianity anyway? What is church? Have you ever thought about it? I've been thinking about it a lot. It sort of hurts to look at Jesus' life and compare it to mine and everything I see around me.
The nakedness of my flesh is awkward and uncomfortable. I am looking into the eyes of Jesus, longing to look through the eyes of Jesus, longing to know Him so intimately that the light that is in me is not darkness but light, His light.
Your eye is a lamp that provides light for your body.
When your eye is good, your whole body is filled with light.
But when your eye is bad your whole body is filled with darkness.
And if the light you think you have is actually darkness,
how deep that darkness is!
Matthew 6: 22-23
You hear people say things like, 'Church isn't a haven for saints, but a hospital for sinners.' Oh really? I fear that we say one thing but live a very different truth. And the truth we live shows what we really believe.
John 1:14 says that Jesus became human and made His home among us.
Jesus became human. Jesus became my humanity, my shame, my lies, my hard ugly truth. He is not ashamed of me. Where did I get the idea that holiness was equated with living like I am God, sinless and perfect. Living ashamed of my humanity, denying the wounds and scars of my past is not godliness.
Jesus didn't play church, and I am tired of playing church.
I am the woman at the well. I am the prostitute wiping Jesus' feet with my tear soaked hair. I am the woman caught in adultery. I am the woman reaching for the hem of His garment.
Really. I am.
While I was yet living in sin, Jesus rescued me. He took me into His arms! His love for me was not based on my goodness. Because I had none. I was sick and He healed me.
I need to remember who I was. I need to remember what Jesus has done for me. And I need to start living like He lived.
God is love, and all who live in love live in God, and God lives in them. And as we live in God, our love grows more perfect. So we will not be afraid on the day of judgement, but we can face Him with confidence because we live like Jesus here in this world. 1John 4:16-17
It's time to get uncomfortable.