Just Being Honest
I am stepping into dangerous territory today, well, a lot lately. It's just that I get it. I get it. I see why so many young people are leaving the church. I see it happening all around me, and frankly, to tell you the truth, sometimes I'd like to go with them. I'm telling the truth here. I am not going to lie to you. This writing thing, if nothing else, it is the nakedness of my soul. I'm telling the truth.
I feel trapped in a system and I want out, but I don't want out, I just want out.
I am lost in this religion. I read about Jesus, I read His words about following Him and loving like Him and living like Him. I read about brothers and sisters and I wonder, is this it? I read about unity and love and forgiveness and I wonder. I read about the body, the intimate connection of the body and I wonder if we are even alive, because we are so disconnected. Yet, like Peter, I am saying, 'where should I go Lord? You alone have the words of eternal life.' I know Christianity is it, is right. There is no leaving the faith.
I am afraid, again. Writing this scares me. I'm telling you how I really feel behind this 'I'm fine' plastic smile. I can play the game pretty well. I know you can too. This 'I'm fine' attitude fills our churches and scares away our young people. Young people that really are not fine, because they are growing up and growing up is hard. They see through it all. All of it.
If we were living the gospel, do you think this would be an issue? Going to church on Sunday or if your really committed maybe you go on Wednesday too, IS NOT ENOUGH. I know I'm not alone in this church lifestyle, but I might be alone in admitting there is a problem. I was once upon a time very happily comfortable in my cozy church life. That is until I started tracking Jesus in a serious way. Now, I cannot justify what I have made of this thing called Christianity. I know that I have to change, but I don't know how.
We are broken. The church is broken. God! We need to be broken, but we are not the right kind of broken.
And the question is....... Are we going to be a part of the fixing or not?
Just being honest,