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Being Real

Leaving the church is not the answer.

When we find ourselves questioning things we need to lean into the church. This is not the time to back away. Satan would have us to step back. He wants to isolate us and convince us that we are all alone.

The fear of man brings a snare. It's a trap. We shouldn't be afraid to be real. Listen, we are sisters and brothers. Who in the natural are you totally yourself around? Your family. Spiritually, it should be the same. We need to be real with our sisters and brothers. We need to stop hiding our true selves. It is amazing what happens when we decide to be genuine. The church strengthens us. We need each other,  however imperfect we are. We are not alone. Sharing our struggles shows us how very much we have in common. We must not back away. We have to be genuine in our faith. Don't retreat when doubts arise. Press in, and open up. Doubts are OK. We all struggle with doubt. Let's struggle together.

There is nothing wrong with asking…

Just Being Honest

I am stepping into dangerous territory today, well, a lot lately. It's just that I get it. I get it. I see why so many young people are leaving the church. I see it happening all around me, and frankly, to tell you the truth, sometimes I'd like to go with them. I'm telling the truth here. I am not going to lie to you. This writing thing, if nothing else, it is the nakedness of my soul. I'm telling the truth.

I feel trapped in a system and I want out, but I don't want out, I just want out.

I am lost in this religion. I read about Jesus, I read His words about following Him and loving like Him and living like Him. I read about brothers and sisters and I wonder, is this it? I read about unity and love and forgiveness and I wonder. I read about the body, the intimate connection of the body and I wonder if we are even alive, because we are so disconnected. Yet, like Peter, I am saying, 'where should I go Lord? You alone have the words of eternal life.' I know C…

Oh Really?

Those who say they live in God should live their lives as Jesus did. 1John 2:6
Jesus is God.

The more that I study the life of Jesus, the more astonished I am at my life.

What is Christianity anyway? What is church? Have you ever thought about it? I've been thinking about it a lot. It sort of hurts to look at Jesus' life and compare it to mine and everything I see around me.

The nakedness of my flesh is awkward and uncomfortable. I am looking into the eyes of Jesus, longing to look through the eyes of Jesus, longing to know Him so intimately that the light that is in me is not darkness but light, His light.

Your eye is a lamp that provides light for your body.  When your eye is good, your whole body is filled with light.  But when your eye is bad your whole body is filled with darkness.  And if the light you think you have is actually darkness,  how deep that darkness is!  Matthew 6: 22-23
I have been living in darkness disguised as light for a long time.

You hear people say things like, …

True Holiness?

Isn't it crazy that Jesus tells the majority of the religious leaders of His day that they will be held responsible for the murder of all godly people of all time? Matthew 23:35

I find that statement amazing. He often calls them blind guides leading the blind.

Let's think about this. These people devoted their entire lives to religion and Jesus is telling them they are going to Hell because they are just like their father, the Devil. What made them so bad? They didn't live wildly sinful lives. They went to church regularly. They were faithful to pay their tithe. They prayed. They fasted. How could Jesus tell them that they were following the Devil? That raises some interesting questions and observations in my mind. The Devil attending church regularly? Praying? Tithing?

A peak into another day in the life of Jesus reveals another shocking truth about our holy God.

Luke 18:9 says,
Jesus told this story to some who had great confidence in their own righteousness and scorned every…

Faith Walking

I went for a walk early this morning. The tide was out, and the smell of the ocean was exquisite! The staccato melody of the eagles filled my ears, and my eyes feasted on every shade of green imaginable. Trevor Morgan sings a song that talks about spring chasing winter away. Winter is finally on the run!
I have been practicing the spiritual discipline of fasting this week. 
Following are a few of the blessings I have experienced so far in this part of my journey.
1. Fasting is like cleaning house:
As I was cleaning the toilet in the upstairs bathroom this afternoon, it occurred to me that fasting is a lot like cleaning house. It's like cleaning yourself, your temple, in a spiritual way. When we are fasting we are keenly aware of our flesh. God picked an effectual object lesson for me today. A toilet! But think about it, isn't that just the place for the flesh. The flesh is repulsive and it stinks. 
2. Fasting helps us to see the darkness still resident in our heart. It is qui…

Stepping In The Jordan

* I am working on my editing skills this week. I originally wrote this in May 2012. It was about twice as long! I am still learning so much. The passion has only grown deeper as I follow Jesus down this path of faith.
** For those of you not familiar with the story of the Jordan River, The Israelites had to pass through the Jordan River in order to gain the promised land that God had for them. This is a type of the believer entering into the promises of God obtained by faith. The Jordan River parted and God made a way for His people to cross on dry ground, but only after they took the first step. You can read about it in Joshua chapter 3.


Are you sure God? Am I really hearing You? But..... there are sooooooo many people already out there doing what I think I hear You calling me to. Am I really hearing You?

My eyes have been opened to the immensity of the blogging world this week. The many women already doin…

Heaven on Earth

Greetings my friends,

It's Friday already! Lisa-Jo's word this week is 'home'. Five minutes to write about the word home. Join us! It's fun!

I am not surprised at the road my mind went down this morning. I'm reading "Heaven" by Randy Alcorn and "The Judgement Seat of Christ" by Rick Howard. They are complimenting each other in profound ways in my heart and especially in my thoughts as I have been pondering some pretty serious things. You will maybe see some of these thoughts reflected in my writing in the days to come.

Ok, Five minutes:

Coming in over the snowy white mountain tops amid a sea of blue and green, dropping down into this rain forest, onto a barely long enough strip of land. Surrounded on all sides by the frigid blue gray of the Pacific ocean. This - these island mountains, this deep blue water, these trees year round green, this has been my home for many years now.
The trek from 'the lower 48' to where I live is long and …

Look Beneath The Surface

A glimpse into the battle raging in my heart and the effectual work of God's Word. 

I hate the religious leaders of Jesus' day. I really do. I am reading through the Gospels with the intention of learning how to live like Jesus in this world. I am finding myself so angry with the hard, unbelieving, proud hearts of the Pharisees. They are so proud! So full of themselves! Their attitudes toward Jesus make me sick. In the midst of my righteous anger I hear Jesus whisper to me,
"Look beneath the surface so you can judge correctly." John 7:24
God's Word is alive, it is active, it does not return to God without accomplishing that for which it is aimed, it is sharp and I am cut.
I am guilty, ashamed, and I cannot look into my Savior's face. 
My excuses for not obeying His Word are empty words in light of Jesus gazing into my heart. He knows me completely.
We look at ourselves as in a mirror dimly.
In a hoarse whisper I choke to get these words out,
"When I look…

One Very Important Fact

A few thoughts as I am reading through Matthew:

To live the forgiven life, we must first forgive, there is no way around that one very important fact.

In Matthew 18 Jesus talks about reconciliation and I am stunned as I realize the gravity of His words. He talks about going to a brother or sister that is living or practicing sin and trying to bring them back into the light. Trying hard. He says that after we have sincerely tried to restore fellowship, if our brother or sister is unwilling to listen, then we should treat them as a crooked tax collector, or as a pagan. 
How does that sit with you?
Looking honestly into Scripture and allowing The Holy Spirit to speak to my heart and examine all of my thoughts and motives is much different than a casual reading.
And I see something I have never seen before......
Who was Matthew, but a crooked tax collector...........

Who was I before Jesus saved my sin sick soul?

a pagan.........
And how did Jesus treat me? How did Matthew end up writing…


Happy Friday All! Today I am participating in Lisa-Jo Bakers Five Minute Friday Party. You can learn about it here, and you are welcome to join in the fun!
Lisa-Jo gives us a word to write about and we set a timer and write for five minutes, whatever comes to mind. Its fun! Today's word is 'Ordinary'.

Is any one really ordinary? 
I love people and the closer I get to people the more I appreciate how absolutely un-ordinary each one of us is. People are just so awesome and unique! 
What is ordinary anyway? And who determines the standard for ordinary?  
I have always had this little rebellious streak in me. And I guess as I sit here and ponder the word ordinary it is this very word that I am am rebelling against. I don't want to be put into a mold and squished and pushed and bent and cut and chopped up to fit into ordinary. 
And this is probably what scares me the most about all of you people reading and writing about faith and God and Jesus and love. I am wonde…