***Disclaimer: The words written here are the working out of my salvation with fear and trembling - not necessarily my conclusions. I am learning and practicing to think for myself and prove all things and holding fast to that which is good. ( Philippians 2:12,1Thessalonians 5:21)
I'm just trying to make sense of this thing we call Christianity.
Comparing what I read in the Bible with what I live.
Looking up, looking in, looking around. Looking at Jesus. Gazing at Him, how he made sense of the world around Him, how he dealt with things. I feel like Zacheaus climbing up that tree to get a good view, watching every move He makes.
He says we need to follow Him.
I am honestly trying to learn what that means.
Still, even as I know He is leading me, still, I am not content. Is this a holy discontent, that will maybe never be fully realized, fully filled? Is there even such a thing? Like this carrot dangling in front of me as I take one step after another.
Church just seems to be broken. It just doesn't seem to be influencing the world like Jesus did. And I'm just trying to figure out what part I have to play in all of that.
Going to church on Sunday is not enough. I have definitely come to that conclusion. If church is enough for you then I think you might be confusing Christianity with some religion.
Does anyone else out there feel like me?
"This is my command: Love each other."
And I am just wondering where that love is? Are we keeping it in the walls of our churches? There are 14 churches in the town I live in. And I am thinking of something my Pastor said on Sunday,
"It's not about going to church, it's about being the church. Salt and light."
And I am looking at Jesus, He never commands us to go to church, but he does say,
"Love each other. Just as I have loved you, you should love each other.
Your love for one another will prove to the world that you are my disciples."
And there just seems to be a disconnect between all of these churches and people and where is Jesus in all of this? Where is the love that sets us apart?
Just wondering and working through grace,