Voice

It's Friday again! Well, actually it's Saturday, Friday was a crazy day around my house and to be completely honest, the more I thought about the word for this week, the more I found myself finding other things to do. I  have been shuffling my feet to the computer over this word.

Every Friday Lisa-Jo Baker hosts 'Five Minute Friday'. She gives us a word prompt and we write for 5 minutes straight, just write what comes to mind. The word this week is 'Voice'.

Voice

Five minutes

Go:


I have been pondering this word for 24 hours now. Why is this one word so hard for me to sit down and write about?
I think it is because God is giving me a voice and I am a little scared about the whole thing. Not of God, but of rejection and criticism, I think.

I can remember being a child and writing the beginnings of many many novels in my 3 subject wide ruled pad of paper. I think it was red. I always had this thought that one day I would write. Then I grew up and life happened and marriage and nine babies, and children and lots and lots of life. Recently I have dedicated myself to Jesus in a way like never before. Totally given myself to Him. His instrument I am. And with that I have begun this writing thing, and honestly it is only in the past couple of weeks that I remembered my dreams of writing as a child.

Sometimes when I sit down to write the thoughts just come and I marvel when I am finished that I could say that??? This writing thing is voice. God's voice speaking to my heart and then my heart overflowing and spilling all over the page.And I find that a little bit intimidating. The things I write coming straight out of my heart flooded with grace. Close and personal. In this voice I have clearly been led to be honest and live my faith through the words I am writing. Intimidating..........

Stop.

Well there it is. I hope you can take some time to breathe deep this weekend. Life seems to rush in on me every day, like a strong gust of wind, scattering all of my plans to the four corners of the earth. And then.....

I breathe deep, and begin to fully live. Now. In the moment of gale force winds, I breathe deep and smile. Life is like that you know. Wild and crazy and totally out of our control. Let's stop fooling ourselves into thinking we have some sort of control. We don't. Lets just enjoy and breathe deep and smile. For we have the assurance that He does cause all things to work together for good for those who love Him and are called according to His purposes in Jesus Christ. And He has promised to never ever leave us nor forsake us. We are chosen and beloved. and Nothing is impossible with God!


Learning to lean,

Renee

Comments

Wendy said…
Oh friend I know that fear of my own voice well. For several years I have been resisting it, but He has been nudging me out of my comfort zone slowly but surely. Praying courage and boldness for you tonight. Thank you for sharing your heart. Blessings.

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