Showing posts from May, 2012

Stepping in The Jordan

* I am working on my editing skills this week. I originally wrote this in May 2012. It was about twice as long! I am still learning so much. The passion has only grown deeper as I follow Jesus down this path of faith. *

Are you sure God? Am I hearing You? But there are sooooooo many people already out there doing what I think I hear You calling me to. Am I really hearing You?

I have opened my eyes to the immensity of the blogging world this week. The many women already doing this very thing. Am I not just another voice in a sea of many? I feel very insignificant today. Very inadequate for this task.

God has given us this task, of reconciling people to Him. 1Corinthians 5:18

Yet, here I am, sitting at my computer, pondering, musing, and typing......I love this place. This passion burning in my heart cannot be quieted.

For the love of Christ controls us. 1Corinthians 5:14

I am on a grace walk, a faith journey, finding my identity in Jesus Christ........ONLY. And this is where He has led m…

The Journey

This is a picture of where I went running this morning. It is such a beautiful place. I have been coming here to meet with God for twenty years now. It never loses it's power over me. It is a place where God's majesty is displayed. I have spent many 'giving up' moments here on this very bench. Listening to God's will as it crosses my own. Giving in to Him. Taking up my cross.
Something in me has changed this year. Those things that I once thought were crosses to bear, are all gone. The loneliness of having no one to relate to, the longing for somewhere else, the trapped feeling of living on an island, all gone! As I look at this bench and I remember the many struggles it helped me to bear, I wonder, where did they go? I never felt them leave. There were no tears. There was no heart wrenching pain. They just vanished. It is as if they never were.

And as I ponder this further I am realizing that my circumstances have not changed. I am still living on an island that g…

Faith Walking

I went for a walk early this morning. The tide was out, and the smell of the ocean was exquisite! The staccato melody of the eagles filled my ears, and my eyes feasted on every shade of green imaginable. Trevor Morgan sings a song that talks about spring chasing winter away. Winter is finally on the run!
I have been practicing the spiritual discipline of fasting this week. 
Following are a few of the blessings I have experienced so far in this part of my journey.
1. Fasting is like cleaning house:
As I was cleaning the toilet in the upstairs bathroom this afternoon, it occurred to me that fasting is a lot like cleaning house. It's like cleaning yourself, your temple, in a spiritual way. When we are fasting we are keenly aware of our flesh. God picked an effectual object lesson for me today. A toilet! But think about it, isn't that just the place for the flesh. The flesh is repulsive and it stinks. 
2. Fasting helps us to see the darkness still resident in our heart. It is qui…

My Flower Sanctuary

I have had a wonderful weekend planting flowers! I just have to share with you some of my discoveries! Life would not be the same without flowers, I am sure of that. So this is it, I have been really dragging my feet about doing any yard work this year. Our yard is in a state of turmoil right now. Nothing is permanent and everything is everywhere. Basically it is an absolute mess and there is nowhere to put anything and well, my husband is a carpenter, if that gives you any clue to the debris in our yard. A carpenter without a garage, a workshop, or any sort of outside storage at all. We are also in the process of a major remodel. So I had basically given up on my yard this year.

Well, my sweet daughter Mary just couldn't let that happen! She planted a few pansies in a hanging basket for me. Little did she know the effect they would have. Wow. The difference that a few little pansies make! I really think that God is so very awesome for creating flowers! A few little flowers amids…

The Son Is Shining!

Come and listen, all you who fear God, and I will tell you what He did for me. For I cried out to Him for help, praising Him as I spoke. If I had not confessed the sin of my heart, the Lord would not have listened. But God did listen! He paid attention to my prayer. Praise God, who did not ignore my prayer or withdraw His unfailing love from me. Psalm 66:16-20
I read a Facebook post by a friend this morning. I really wanted to comment but I didn't really know what to say at the time. I just felt like God had something to say to her, to encourage her. And the voice of the enemy of our souls was doing his job, whispering to me, 'you don't always have to say something, people are going to get tired of you talking about God all of the time' and more whispers like that. Knowing in my heart though, that God did indeed want to speak encouragement to her. I thought of several comments that I could make, but between Satan whispering in my ear, and me not discerning exactly wha…

The Story of Us

Just as our bodies have many parts  and each part has a special function,  so it is with Christ's body.  We are many parts of one body,  and we all belong to each other. Romans12:4-5

Acceptance, belonging to someone or something, a part of a whole, a voice, value, worth...............................The voice of humanity crying out.
What does God expect us to do with it?

It is more than belonging to God, it is belonging to each other. I'm thinking about the church. The church model in the Book of Acts, the exhortation to not forsake the assembling of ourselves together in Hebrews, the picture of the human body as the church in Ephesians, 1Corinthians and Romans.
We all have this need for 'connectiveness', Christian or not. It is innate. But in the Christian church, Christ is the head, and we are each a specific body part, not independent of each other, or of the Head.  So I am pondering, is this innate desire for belonging, connecting, being a part of something, con…


I buffet my body and make it my slave. The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak. Weak? Maybe in a way, but I think for me, the flesh is strong, very strong. To begin this life of slavery I am noticing that my flesh isn't liking it much. I am pretty much bent on my ways. And to be truthful, I think I am still trying to make my ways God's ways. The Bible says that He will give me the desires of my heart. I am still trying to make my desires His. The flesh is so strong in me. I was reading in  2Chronicles20 this morning about Jehoshaphat defeating the Ammonites and Moabites. Two very strong types of the flesh in the OT. ( Moab and Ammon are descendants of the incestuous relationship of Lot and his daughters) The Ammonites and Moabites and Meunites declared war on Jehoshaphat. ( I kind of feel like my flesh is doing the same with me.) Jehoshaphat started out terrified and begging God for guidance. The first thing he did was to call for a fast. Realizing that they didn't kn…

Freedom to be a Slave?

Focus, priorities, Jesus. Sometimes I really feel like a broken 45.
Skip, skip, skip, focus focus focus
priorities, priorities, priorities,
JESUS, JESUS, JESUS..................................

I am a desperately slow learner in spiritual things. I do learn eventually though, and am grateful that my Heavenly Father doesn't give up on me. So this the latest lesson we're working on. It is something  like the grain of wheat falling to the earth and dying. I am learning to die to myself in a myriad of ways.

All to Jesus, all for Jesus.
Jesus, please help me to know You better, more fully, completely, intimately, to know and be known.
Question: Is it the more that I surrender to You, the more that You fill me, and the more that You fill me, the more that I know You? Complete surrender to be known and to know intimately? I hear You whisper to me............Abide.....

As I lose my life on this earth I find ...................You............  Replacing all that I give up with Living …

In Process....................

I have been really stuck on Jesus lately. How did He live on this earth? If I am supposed to follow in His footsteps,(1Peter2:21) where do I put my feet? I came across this song recently and began to search the scriptures to 'prove all things'. These are some of the verses I came up with:
For He has rescued us from the kingdom of darkness and transferred us into the Kingdom of His dear Son, who purchased our freedom and forgave our sins. (Colossians1:12-14)
Thank You Jesus!!!
Jesus said,

Healthy people don't need a doctor-sick people do. Now go and learn the meaning of this Scripture:  'I want you to show mercy, not offer sacrifices.'  For I have come to call not those who think they are righteous, but those who know they are sinners. Matthew9:12-13)

 Again, Thank You Jesus!!!!

Imitate God, therefore, in everything you do, because you are his dear children. Live a life filled with love, following the example of Christ. He loved us and offered Himself as a sacrific…

Mary in A Martha World?

Okay, so maybe I have been a little hard on Martha lately. A little hard on myself?
This morning, the Lord brought me to a portion of scripture that tells another part of the story of Martha's life. Meditating on that, I went to a prayer meeting, and one of the people there made mention of living like Mary in a Martha world. And I began to see that I very much relate to Martha as I aspire to be like Mary. Whoever would have thought that I could get so much out of a glimpse into the lives of two people!
This morning in John11:20-40 I saw that Martha was a doer, Martha had faith, Martha knew Scripture, Martha was loyal, Martha believed, Martha doubted, Jesus affirmed His love for Martha, and Jesus blessed her by giving her back her brother.  It isn't a terrible sin to be like Martha. I think Martha represents more of the tendencies of human nature than does Mary. Most of us can relate to Martha, and long to be like Mary. Jesus definitely loved Martha very much and He definitely…

Turning Around........again

Frustration........... bubbling, perking, steaming,  ahhh...............
This is what happened a couple of days ago:

 I was feeling tired and a bit 'under the weather'. I had been called on to help with our family business, outside of my home, for long periods of time, several days in a row, and consequently, I felt like I was losing my grasp on the ebb and flow of my home, and feeling disconnected with my children. Totally confused about my priorities,and really having nothing left to give. I didn't feel like singing, I really just wanted to go back to bed. You know, a 'stop the world I wanna get off' sort of day. And I began to focus on these things.

Frustration, bubbling, perking, steaming..............
Everywhere I look, a pile of clothes, a pile of papers,
coats and boots and shoes and socks and bags cluttering both entries into the house.....
both exits out.
I want out!
Tripping over legos, where did the cushions to the couch go?
And why is the door open? Where…

Putting on My Tennis Shoes!

A song by Jason Gray called  Fade With our Voices:
After all the songs are sung And our prayers for kingdom come Did we bring honor to the words we sing?
Does our worship have hands Does it have feet Does it stand up in the face of injustice Does our worship bow down Does it run deep Is it more than a song that fades with our voices Does it fade with our voices?
Lord, its you we long to please Make our lives a melody That we proclaim when we live in Jesus name
Does our worship have hands Does it have feet Does it stand up in the face of injustice Does our worship bow down Does it run deep Is it more than a song that fades with our voices Does it fade with our voices? Does it fade with our voices
So if we raise our hands high Let us also reach them out If we lift our voices up Let it be the sound of love Let it be the sound of love
Let our worship have hands Let it have feet Let it stand up in the face of injustice Let our worship bow down Let it run deep It's more than a song that …


A humble quiet heart filled with Power from on high dripping with the sweet fragrance of Christ spilling over the brim You are bigger that I can imagine fear of the unknown threatens my control  You are telling me, Let go of preconceived ideas read the Bible See the supernatural God's power and God's Spirit are not imprisoned in a box God cannot be contained Believe Expect fear of the unknown threatens my control You say, Prove all things and hold fast to that which is good God's Word is dynamic The church doesn't see God's Power because we have tried to contain Him I have tried to contain Him,  in my ideas He is not containable His ways are not my ways He is beyond total comprehension beyond my ideas But, He will only do something big,  amazing, miraculous, and supernatural  through me through us if.... we believe.... If we let Him out of our ideas and trust Him And allow Him to be...... He is bigger than I can imagine.
One thing I am sure of: God's Will is H…