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My Story: God has a Plan for Me

The next few blog entries are going to be about me. God has impressed upon my heart a need to be real. Transparent. He says that in our weakness He is made strong. So I am gonna be me.

My story. Hmmm.... where do our stories start. I guess for me it all started with a decision, before I was born, after I was conceived. My parents, still in high school, just barely 16, made a very important decision. They chose to keep me, to let me live! I was born in 1973. The Roe vs. Wade year. I am very thankful to be here at all. I have always had this feeling that God has a plan for me.

A rocky childhood, as you can imagine when your parents are growing up right along with you. Mom and Dad didn't make it and they divorced when I was eightish. They didn't really like each other very well after that...............  I think they really loved one another deeply and didn't know what to do with their mixed up feelings. It came out in a lot of anger and confusion and hurt. I remember prayi…

True Love

There is a song that I love because it tells part of my story, it is written by Jason Gray, it goes like this,


Give me rules, I will break them
Show me lines, I will cross them
I need more than a truth to believe
I need a truth that lives, moves, and breathes
To sweep me off my feet

Its gotta be
More like falling in love
Than something to believe in
More like losing my heart
Than giving my allegiance
Caught up, called out
Come take a look at me now
Its like I'm falling,
Its like I'm falling in love

Give me words, I'll misuse them
Obligations, I'll misplace them
Cuz all religion ever made of me
Was just a sinner with a stone tied to my feet
It never set me free

Its gotta be
More like falling in love
Than something to believe in
More like losing my heart
Than giving my allegiance
Caught up, called out
Come take a look at me now
Its like I'm falling
Its like I'm falling in love

Love, Love
Deeper and deeper
It was love that made me a believer
In more than a name…

Heart Surrender

Heart revival. I think of the story I heard somewhere by someone about the person that drew a circle on the floor around themselves and asked God to send revival, starting right there, inside that circle...... I am in that circle.

A lot  has happened in the past 6 months. For many years, I have been battling with one specific area of surrender to God. I can remember saying, "I can't let go." Fooling myself to believe that the reason that I can't let it go is because possibly God is laying this on my heart and it is His will. The most frustrating part of it was that He never seemed to be leading my Godly husband in the same direction.??? I had many days in the deep dark valley of despair questioning myself, my husband and God.

Whatever it is, that you just can't seem to get beyond, whatever it is that just keeps coming back, no matter how many times I gave it to the Lord, it always just crept back up on me. And before I knew it, I was once again in the pit of des…

When The Rubber Hits The Road

Today has been a 'rubber hits the road' kind of day. And it is only 8:30am! You know, A 'walk the talk' kind of morning, counting the cost, reality. What does it really mean to be a grain of wheat that falls to the ground and DIES. To take up my cross and follow Jesus. To lose my life in this world in order to find it. To love God with ALL of my heart, mind, soul and strength, to set my affections on the things above, not on the things of this earth, to be anxious for nothing and to seek first His righteousness. WOW!
Very sobering. but in the end, the sharp pruning knife of the Lord, though it hurts, does yield the peaceable fruit of righteousness.........when I yield ....that is.
And YES, it is worth it.
Specifics? Well I guess they could be different for all of us. What is God calling you to? What ever it is, If you are going to choose to follow, with all of your heart, mind, soul and strength, He, the Wonderful Vine Dresser, will have to prune you. To cut out that …